walk away.

I saw you coming
I saw those big b'ful dreams in your eyes
I saw that conscious smile
I saw you carefully putting your flying hair behind your ear
And I know why you are here
But do you know why am I?

yeah we will talk
I will make you laugh
I will sketch your dream on sand
and fill them with your favorite color
you just close your eyes and feel the light inside
And let me wipe my eye

Time keeps flying
Drink turns cold
You are happy coz you have always dream t of this moment
You forgot those dozens of buzz flashing on your phone
You just feel the wind blowing from the window next to you
And you miss my untouched coffee

Yeah you want me to walk from now on
with you for you forever
i am ready to walk
I am ready to stand forever
But my dark passenger is not letting me go

Will you accept my damaged soul
Will you love my empty broken heart
Will you wait till my lungs start filling air again
Will you live in emptiness between my two breaths

I know your face color is changing
I know your dreams are shattering
I know you will know walk away
You will feel the pain tonight
But tomorrow you will again smile

Let that be good for you
coz am a empty soul
walking between two iron roads
let me just walk away
coz i am just nothing for you !

Late Night 1

i am sitting on my couch with my eyes wide open.starring at the ceiling fan.Holding my glass.The beer kept on my side is half empty and others are lying inverted on all the corners of my room.Slowly slowly i realize that my mind is in sync with the motion of the fan.A set of random pictures popping up from all the possible corners of my brain.The pictures are popping up or rather flashing up like the lightning of hurricane on the coast of pacific..And to add to this,Slowly i start hearing sounds...voices.. all mixed with different set of emotions .My mind is puzzled.i am trying my best to concentrate & form a sequence of these pictures and make out some logical thing from those voices.But they are just popping up with uncontrollable speed.On observing deeply i see a familiar face in most of the pictures.The person is looking different in some pictures.It seems like these are the pictures of the same person just at different points of his lifetime..The gap may be in years.But in most of them, looks like the person if aged around 25-26 .In most of the pictures ,there are smiles..big big smiles and laughter barring a few which have tears rolling.tears of happiness,, achievement..I am trying to figure out whats happening.Neither the beer was strong nor did i overslept last night.I looked at the clock. Its ticking 2 am..and counting.but tomorrow is a holiday and i have all the time in this world to solve this mystery.I open a parallel channel on the screen of my mind.I recall all the thriller/murder mystery/scary movies that i have been seeing lately..All the deadly & dreadful places I have ever visited in my past..but wait.Am i surfing the wrong channel coz none of the pictures that are popping up looks dreadful.There is a touch of calm ,rather warm breeze in most of them.There is no scary back ground sounds.. no sounds of water dropping from the tap, doors opening/shutting ,curtains flying...so am i trying to handle this case wrongly.......I have to shut this parallel screen..but now i cant handle this...i have to get to the bottom of this..the brightness of the flashlights is making me worried.. tense..i am sweating in an AC chamber.what...is there a chamber of secrets ?
I got up from my couch.i think may be flashlights will stop cause i have changed my position.and the cameraman wont be able to get a clear shot.and yea.i was damn right.there were no more flashes...

I walked up......threw away the half empty bottle in the garbage bin.may be the adulteration in the drinks have touched a new low in this part of the country.i pulled up another from the refrigerator and just when i was closing the door.the light from the fridge dimmed out like a flash and triggered the flashes in my brain once again....i am confused.i am irritated.my brain is getting fucked.i am looking all around..there is no cameraman ..there is not even a beautiful leather bag lying around in any corner where my eyes can reach ..

i walked out into the terrace.Night breeze is always the most pacifying stuff after a long hard day ..may be it will rain tonight..may be not.btw thinking aimlessly .i walked towards the end of the terrace .i was gulping my last drink.and what do i see.There is some one at a distance.holding something.. something like a black bag... i could see..some weird thing in his hand ..i decided that i will find out whats the shit is going on.i ran into my house grabbed my slippers and rushed down the stairs..On reaching the ground floor, i realized that the main gate was locked..so i decided to jump on top of it,after all some advantage of being 6 ft plus i should avail..




I start walking in the direction i saw that weird shadow,i am walking fastbut there is no sign of him.i could see dozen of dogs staring at me.with all types of grunting sounds you can imagine.. But they were not barking..they were making a grumbling noise..a noise u usually don't hear from stray dogs.i decided to walk ahead...I start speeding my steps..The army of dogs starts following me.i see on the corner of the street the shadow with a black bag..i start jogging toward him..half of the army of the dogs is communicating via a transmission radio.i could hear that grunting sound from all parts of the catchment area. flash lights again started storming my mind.Mann whats wrong with me, is there another cameraman too??am i following the right person..are the dogs also a part of trained mission are there two or three or probably a crew of cameramen.But why are they doing this shit to me...cause a middle class common man is in no way a matter of interest to any damn person in this world.I reached the corner of the street and i saw that shadow standing still near a signboard which showed the way ...way of entrance into this society where i stay..
My mind is puzzled.the clicks which were in my mind were showing me all happy smiles hugs and warmth...but here i am in d middle of dis night following this shadow,who is scaring the hell out of me....

i decided to walk towards him.i m wiping my face with my hand.scratching my beard..that shadow is slowly turning around..i am getting nervous,scared too.The dogs have stopped following me...my heart beats increased.My legs are shivering...now i am seeing the gloomy set of pictures in my mind...I am getting some soul tearing noises.naah..none of those bull shit noises music directors put in not-so-scary horror movies..real noises..real noises of pain, of despair,of loneliness ..!!!
i almost reached the signboard.i was scared to touch the shadow.i thought it will run away.but it was not moving.i slowly stretched my hand to touch it...and....It turned towards me. my hands stopped..My brain started recognizing this shadow.i knew this guy... yea i think i know him..hes a happy guy.A very very happy go lucky guy.. gosh his face resembled the face of d guy who was flashing in my mind..Hes strong..hes cheerful..and he is looking at me. smiling aimlessly and then.. he started laughing......oh god..his laughs are scaring me..no no..gosh am trembling..he is laughing looking at me..no..i cant stand this laughter..any more ...i started taking steps back....but my body couldn't turn...its still facing him.....he is having dimples on his face...he is having sparkle in his eyes.a halo of serenity/calmness on his face which is making my soul attracted to him..but his laugh and the way he is looking at me is making me scared...i gather all my strength and i turn around..and i start walking..as fast as fast as i could...i ran..without looking back till i reached the entrance of my house..before entering my house....i slowly turned back..just to check..nobody is following me.. i could hear distant sound of some dogs howling.i saw a lamp post..bright....it was lit with a bright light.. A light so bright i have never seen ,like a high mast light and i saw that shadow..standing right beneath it.The shadow was still. my heart beat touched a record high . i could feel my right limb shivering..but i waited to see what that guy does next....gosh....he was standing there looking at me but he was not laughing.he was just staring. suddenly i saw a tear rolling down from his eye and his hands.which were carrying that black bag......he just joined them in front of me.i tried reading his eyes.They were telling me something..they were giving me some clew and i could read this from his face that he was confident that i will decode that clew.he kept standing there.i tried my best to decode what he was trying to say.but i couldn't .i thought of rewinding my life from the start and try my best to decode what was he trying to convey.but my brains were just not working.....And while i was running this thought process in my brain..I didn't know what happened to him..he read something from my eyes & hesmiled slightly....unjoined his hands and started walking..away..far far away into the darkness.i was standing near the gate of my house wondering which side to walk.should i climb upstairs and just dooz off on my bed..or should i follow him ?.. follow some one .some one who was flashing there in my memories.,..some one who had the aura so bright..some 1...whom i felt..i knew ..!!
i didn't know what to do..i was just standing at my gate..saw that shadow slowly slowly getting engulfed in the darkness of the night.....nuite noire !